Who is the Anchor of Your Soul?

The most resonant advice I have received from the first few friends I opened up was to allow only the voice of God be heard in the midst of my turbulence.

I did not realize the weight of those words until I finally opened up to more people - now that our status was clear.

With the best interest in their hearts, some of the advices I have gotten go along the lines of:

1) It happening because I deserved someone better

"Well, I don't think you deserve being treated that way, God must have someone better"

2) Why he did it despite the prior commitment/promise

"Did he consult with any wise counsel before making such a serious decision?"

3) Justifying his deeds with theorizations

"Perhaps he met someone new..."

When situations do not work out the way we want to, it is almost natural for us to immediately search for reasons or persons to blame. We want to justify our flesh by speculating according to our glasses - perception.

Why?

Perhaps pride.

The truth is, these thoughts have gushed through my mind more than I would like to admit. Indeed, momentarily, it seemed to help me move on due to the negative emotions evoked in my heart. 

Yet, if we were to be completely clean with ourselves, it accomplishes nearly nothing.

If anything, it detaches us from our ability to empathize, removes us from our ability to understand, and deludes us into believing that we are innocent.

Mistakes should never lead us to condemnation.
Mistakes should lead us to comprehend the limitation of ourselves and turn our eyes to our limitless God.

We can either start pointing fingers, or we can come to the honest conclusion that all of us fall short in our ability to love.

The moment we place something other than God at the throne of our hearts, we start making decisions based on our own "wisdom."

I haven't lived for a very long time, but I think I have witnessed enough misadventures my emotions have brought me into.

It's not, and will never be within the capacity of my heart to uphold that throne.

It does not belong to me... but Jesus.